God’s Desire verses My Desire
Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. Psalm 51:6, KJV
I woke up early one morning with a heavy heart. I felt confusion on what I was supposed to do with my cookie business as well as my ministry assignment. I was currently on a 21 day fast seeking God to enlighten the eyes of my heart on all the things He had for me. I don’t know what I expected but when my heart became heavy, I was sad. I begin to pray out of my soul seeking God for answers. I heard in my spirit The Lord’s Song by Maranda Curtis so I played it in the background while I was praying.
I began to understand that the heavy heart was brought on by God because He wanted to talk to me about those assignments. He gave me clear steps as to what to do with the cookie business. When I asked Him about the ministry He said, “You can’t do what people want you to do and please me. Your focus has to be on pleasing me. If your desire is for the people that sounds good but it will only bring honor to you. You want honor to come to me but it will not work trying to please the people and calling it God. It is not me!” I immediately repented in my soul.
Throughout the previous months I had received several requests asking me when I was going to start posting devotionals again and when I was going to put out another book. I wanted to give the people what they were asking for. I had been receiving writings regularly from God so I thought I needed to get them done and ready for posting. God’s words revealed to me my heart posture. In trying to please people I was actually seeking glory for myself and not God! Ouch!
We have to be so careful that we are not calling what we are doing God, when in actuality we are glorifying ourselves.
Father, thank you for bringing out the hidden unknown things of our heart. David said it well: Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! (Psalm 139:23-24) This we pray in Jesus’ name, amen.
Affirmations: Matthew 10:20; Luke 24:32; Ephesians 6:19, Isaiah 55:11
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