Trusting God
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6, KJV
My husband asked me what I was doing on August 1st. Whenever he asks a question like that, I get the feeling there's something he wants me to do that I don’t want to do, so he's checking to see if I already have plans. I replied, "I don’t know, why?" He said, "A friend of mine wants us to come over for dinner." I asked, "What friend?" and he responded, "Jacqueline from Facebook." I was like, "What? No!" and that sparked a heated discussion. I eventually gave in and said okay because I truly had nothing on my calendar, but I was upset that he would even suggest something like that. I didn’t feel it was safe.
Then a quiet voice in my head asked, "Do you trust the God in your husband?" When I heard those words, a sense of peace came over me. But my mind quickly shifted back to how illogical it seemed to go to someone's home for dinner when I had never met them. I started getting angry again. A flood of emotions ran through me, and part of me felt this was an attack from the enemy, but I couldn’t let go because it didn’t make sense. When my husband tried to reassure me that Jacqueline was a nice person, I reacted aggressively. He tried to calm me down and, realizing this may not have been the best idea, promised never to do it again.
On the day of the dinner, I still felt a lot of resistance and pressure, so I asked God for help again. In His humorous way, He sent me one of my own devotionals, titled Trust God! I knew then that the spiritual warfare I was experiencing was from Satan, who didn’t want me to go. After praying, my spirit calmed, and I said, "God, I trust You.”
When we arrived at Jacqueline’s home, she was the sweetest woman, and her spirit radiated God’s presence. His light shined through her. We didn’t get to meet her husband, as he had to work late, but she explained that they were believers and just wanted to connect with other married couples who loved God. They had been married for four years, and she had been following my husband’s posts for over eleven years. She said she could tell through his posts that we had a heart for God. My husband had met her once, nine years earlier, at one of the wineries where his band was playing.
I believe the entire situation was a setup for my growth and to reveal where my faith in God stood. Every day, God is taking us to a new level of faith. Moving in faith requires letting go of control, no matter how irrational things may seem. God didn’t want me to trust in my husband or in my own common sense—He wanted me to trust Him! I realized that day that I was still clinging to control, but I also reached a new level of faith by letting go. I know there will be other tests in different circumstances, but I pray that when they come, I will follow Proverbs 3:5-6 with all my heart: Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.
Key points:
Trust means releasing control to God.
Depending on common sense can hinder your faith.
God is truly watching over you.
Affirmations: Matthew 10:20; Luke 24:32; Ephesians 6:19, Isaiah 55:11
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