Love Journey

…his appearance was so disfigured beyond that of any human being and his form marred beyond human likeness—Isaiah 52:14, NIV I offered my back to those who beat me, my cheeks to those who pulled out my beard; I did not hide my face from mocking and spitting. Isaiah 50:6, NIV Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer….Isaiah 53:10, NIV

I was up praying one morning when I heard myself say, “God, I want to out love people. I want to love them more than they could ever love me.” I immediately heard him say to read the scriptures above. Jesus was beaten so much that he was disfigured beyond recognition. He did not hide his face when people pulled out His beard, mocked at Him and was spat upon. Scripture says that it was the Lord’s will to crush Him and cause Him to suffer.

After reading those verses I thought about what I had just prayed. I could feel my eyes swell up with tears. I not only thought about how Jesus had suffered for us, but that God was telling me suffering and pain comes with love. I knew in my flesh I did not want to endure that kind of pain. I could feel a war going on in my heart. The Holy Spirit wanted me to know that to truly fulfill what I had prayed, pain and suffering would be apart of this journey and it is God’s will to crush my flesh.

I sat there with tears rolling down my eyes just thinking about what was going on inside me. Then from nowhere I understood I would be transformed into his love and my fleshly me would be conquered and I would be more like Him! My spirit was lifted and all I could say was YES!

Affirmations: Matthew 10:20; Luke 24:32; Ephesians 6:19-20